picture talk!

lookiiee lookiiee.. im just done with another photo edit.. from photoshop.. teach by my younger sister. i like it.. it represent some of my feeling. people always judge my look.. but i try to be Me.. coz thats ME..


have a nice day..

teddy bear

i went from "LOOKING"

to "IGNORING"

from "HATING"

to "MISSING"

from "LOVING"

to "LOSING"

from "LOVE"

to "HATE"

from "HAPPY"

to "SADNESS"

from "SMILLING"

to "CRYING"

from "HELLO"

to "GOODBYE"

sunnies

its me.. im just so bored. then i remember i bought Gogirl! magazine . its the most awesome magazine i've ever had. it has a bonus in it.. so here i am with the bonus.. nice rite??

test

This is one of my favorite pieces from the H&M Fall Fashion collection. Check it out at hm.com

im follow me

i forgot how did it happen, i dont know what i click.. i actually followed myself.. how silly me ..

a friends big day

It was my elementery friends big day,, she so lucky to marry a foreign America. It was my first time being in a formal "private" wedding party. it was really really "private". Not as like any other Indonesian wedding. This time, the invitation was very limit. She even only invite the four of us (me, and three other elementery friends, but to bad one of our friend cant make it). We came a bit early, we even dicided to wait at the lobby since we dont recon any guest as our friends.

So, like I said it was my first time being in a private wedding party. Only close relatives, best friends, and a few colleques. I never thought it was going to be really really private. Because as we all know that the more the merrier isnt it. heheh.. well maybe its because it a "private" party anyway.

But then i found out that it was not only me who's amaze by this cute private party, a friend of mine also. She kept on saying, "where are all the guest? are you sure we should be here. Is it really her wedding".. boy she did ask alot. hehehe.. it was kinda funny anyway because we were "lost" somehow, not only because of the number of guest but also by the "food". O dear.. we were such a hungry wolfs, but then again, it was a private party, so what can you expect, the food was as much as the guest.

Then we got home and my friend dicided to go to McDonald, she was not satify with the menu... hahahha.. what an experience.

*anyway, the wedding girl, hands me the bouquet to hold coz she was about to cut the cake ... and a simple wish i said "i hope i can be the next wedding girl" !!

god answers all my prayer..

Alhamdullilah, i dont know what to say, im so speachless that day. all i can remember today is that i pray to Allah, i said "when can my family gathered like the old times".. and once i prayed .. "im so tired of working, i cant even find a reason why should i work. i have no purpose at all" .. now Allah has answerd my questions, he made our family gathered again, even only for a while. and now i know whats the reason i should work, now even harder this time,, its because my family needs me... its them, they are the reason i should be working harder and harder...

i know that sometimes Allah doesnt grand our wishes without any mean.. this is his way of making me understand that in order to get what i want, i must do what i dont want. so that i learn from it. so that i wouldnt be dissapointed one day. so that i will be tougher in his way...

amin amin amin...

now that i know it. i hope Allah gave me more power to do his will... amin..

BO to da RED !!

im getting bored lately with my daily routine.. i dont know why.. its maybe b'coz im not in the mood for my "office hour".. i have tons of task. group of pendings. and my missunderstood of my own "jobdesc".

my jobs is not the one i wanted. i dont know what happend.. i just felt i was "curse".. gee.. i hate math since the day i my aunt locked me in the room for doing "multiplication", "divided", bla bla bla.. she just kept me in the room all alone and let me think my self how to finish my homework. all i can do at that time was cry!!

thats when i just start hating math. althought i know, my life is full of numbers.. hehe

hurrayyyyy its Ramadhan,,,

hipp hipp hurray,, its Ramadhan guys.. Im so thankfull to Allah, because im still given a chance to join the Ramadhan.. althought i know its just the second day of fasting.. BUT.. im so exited!!

there are alot of things goin on in Ramadhan, the most "DELICIOUS" part will beee... expecting "buka puasa".. waiting till the sunsets down.. oww its such a happy moment. why? coz.. its time to break the fast! hhehehhehe.. from sunrise till sunsets down, we have to keep our mouth from bad words, keep are hearts from evil things, not eating, nor drinking, i know its hard at the beginning.. but its gonna be harder at the end :p heheh.. dont believe me..??? hohhohoho.. please have a try...

but the harder it gets the more "pahala" we get.. this month is the month of "discount".. were all the good things will be "double,tripple" and so on so on..

wish me luck for the next 28 days..

xoXOxo

done nothing !

ok. im not doing anything.. :(. i have been following several cute and awesome blogs. it made me speachless... it did.

now, in my spare time.. i have got to make something. : )

hope i can load them soonest.. CAIYOOO... !!

my first stitch

this is my first post of my handmade..
im so exited to post it.. cos finally i got a camera and its working : p

i dont know where did this idea came from..
i actually draw something alike but it turns out that my stitching skill is not that good : ( ,, so i just followed my fingers and VOILA.. i still love it anyway..

hari ini

Ternyata susah ya menggampangkan segala sesuatu, awalnya saya pikir mudah untuk saya membuat catatan- catatan kecil atas kejadian yang saya alami. Atas nama sibuk saya menjawab pertanyaan saya sendiri. Kalo ditanya sibuk apa, saya juga ga tau mesti jawab apa. Saya emang sibuk, sibuk memikirkan konsep. Saya perfeksionis, kalo udah salah, saya maunya diulang lagi dari awal. Emang rada ribet sih, tapi itu emang saya.

Setiap mau melangkah, mau memulai sesuatu saya selalu ribet memikirkan konsep. Dan di akhir tujuan pasti semua konsep- konsep sok perfeksionis itu 'patah'. Iyaps.. patah, nggak tau deh jadi berapa patahan yang jelas patah!.

Sekali lagi saya memaafkan diri saya dan tetap saya akan berjuang untuk mematahkan segala konsep- konsep bodoh saya yang gara- gara konsep saya itu, apapun nggak bisa terwujud kalo hanya sebatas konsep. Selamat tinggal KONSEP. Sampai jumpa dilain waktu ketika kamu benar- benar serius dengan saya dan saya juga serius dengan kamu dan kita memang bisa berkolaborasi.

PS : saya tidak akan meninggalkan kamu, hanya sementara waktu saja. sampai saya tahu kemampuan saya bagaimana tanpa kamu.

emo

if i tell u my story ..
would you make me a song, would you sing it out loud.

if i tell u my story ..
what happen last time. what i see. what i heard.
would you make it for me ..

if i tell u my story ..
only u know the truth. let others listen in rhyme and music.
dont let them know me. just you and the song.

if i tell you my story ..
i wouldnt have to feel my pain alone. no more. no less.
no tears. no saddness. no . no . no .

if i tell you my story ..
please keep it save. in your heart. please do it for me.
please. please. please.


im just a girl about to grow up. about to feel my pain. about to be hurt by the world.

im just a girl .

d.o.a

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